Sunday, September 2, 2012

My abscence

If you follow me on Facebook, you are probably already aware of where I've been the last several months. After a much needed 10yr anniversary trip with my husband to Alaska, we found out we were expecting #4. This was in May. My parents had been visiting for 3 weeks, and then shortly after my mother-in-law came for a 3 week visit of her own. The pregnancy had me very sick, much worse than the other 3. I lost 9 lbs the first trimester, and ended up in the ER once for IV fluids. Considering my starting weight was only 125, 9 lbs is pretty significant. Finally around 16 weeks, the nausea had subsided, but I was also sick with severe allergies (seasonal), being limited to what medications I could take. I also had some Lupus related problems due to not taking my medication regularly (because of constant vomiting). I met with the Fetal Maternal Health Doctor at 16wks, and despite a cold, things were looking good. I went at 18wks to have a routine sonogram and much to our disappointment, we found the baby had died. I have had 2 previous miscarriages at 8 wks, but never did the idea of losing a baby so far into a pregnancy ever really seem like a possibility to me. I mean, I have had 3 healthy full term babies. It was very disheartening, especially after 16 weeks of pure pregnancy misery; to have such a tragic end to it all. I just had a D&E this past Thursday, and am starting to feel like my old self physically. We've been doing a very lite load of schooling the last month, but hope to be back in full swing in the next week or two. Which will include blogging again!! First things first I have to get this house cleaned up, hubby did his best to maintain it, but it needs some serious TLC!!

10 comments:

  1. I just wanted to tell you my heart aches for you. Those who have not lost a child cannot possibly understand the heartache you are going through. I truly do and I know that things are very hard for you right now. Please know that I'm praying for you!!! ((hugs))

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  2. I am so sorry for your loss.

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  3. I am so sorry for your loss! I'll say a prayer for you and your family!

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  4. I am so very sorry for your loss. I've had a couple of miscarriages in early pregnancy and those were difficult enough. I can only imagine what you feel. My thoughts are with you.
    Kelly at Little Wonders' Days

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  5. I am so sorry for your loss. Having had several miscarriages myself I feel your pain. The only good thing that came out of it for me was that my husband and I adopted a child with special needs. We are in the process of our second special needs adoption. I will pray for you in the days ahead. Hugs and once again I am so sorry for your loss.

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  6. My heart aches for you. Hugs.

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  7. I am so very sorry for your loss. I havemiscarried before, but never that far into a pregnancy. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
    ((((hugs))))

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  8. I am also sorry for your lost. Take care of yourself and don't be too hard on yourself about getting back to "normal" again.

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  9. I'm so sorry to hear about your difficult summer. After investing so much time and energy I can't imagine how devistating it must have been. Anything you can do to return to your old normal and routine is bound to help get you through. Keep strong.

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